Its been awhile since I opened my LJ
Though I don't think anyone is reading it anyways..( ^ ^;)
So made a lot of decisions these couple of weeks. I decided to embrace my love of art and continue on making artworks. I also accepted the fact that I'll soon take over our family business.I'm still hesitant in my medical course right now but there's nothing I can do about it.
I've been trying to fulfill my future obligations because it's my parents wishes. I think the only down fall is I feel like I'm disconnecting to this world. I have classmates, teachers, and the people I know. I feel like I'm looking for someone to connect with-
what am i saying? Heads taking a illusional bliss drifting again... Still it would be nice to take a break from all of this- go to a place where no one can recognize me and be in such different place.
No one to judge you because they don't know your name. No one to demand what they want from you, because they just don't care. Oh how I want to take a break...
My parents promised that I have a cruise after college, well that's still 2 years from now...
Maybe if they would just stop noticing me for a while, I can still bear living this life for a little while...
for now I shall keep on distracting myself
my escape from stress... making artworks :)
www.marvipacete.deviantart.com
- Been a while
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marvipacete- December 11th, 2009
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- marvipacete
- June 4th, 2009
summer has once again ended... it's time to drown myself in anguish... So I guess I would be posting less artwork, but I'll try to make some sketches in my free time...
Hopefully, nothings gonna happen to my left hand (sketching hand) during my arnis training (filipino martial arts in which I started training on, on MAY 24 2009.
AH!!!!! KAPOI!("I'm so tired") I need a vacation! *sigh*...
The only fun thing about going back to school is.. I won't be home alot... Most likely my parent won't be able to see me and only pressure me less... lol
During my 1 week break... I was able to read a lot of MANGAS, sketch some artworks and have a bump on my forehead from my arnis training(which totally hurts like hell!)...
To end my blabbing... please see my artworks if possible in full size. Please leave some comments because I'm still learning and I need a lot of progress as an artist, it would be very helpful to me to read your comments.
DOMMO for visiting my profile... ^_^
I very much appreciate it...
I almost forgot my artwork are posted at
www.marvipacete.deviantart.com
please visit this site... DOMMO
~ciao ^_^
- HEY there
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- marvipacete
- May 12th, 2009
guilty
Hey there, still remember me? It’s been two years now since I last saw you, you see.
Hey there, could you spare some time for me? I know the last time we saw each other I was pretty busy...
I wanted to talk to you sooner but I lost the courage to...
For the reason, that we had some misunderstandings, but I know that I should have talked to you...
I know I wasn’t that perfect, like you wanted me to be...
I know I wasn’t that polite to others like you hoped I would be...
You probably thought I’ve forgotten you, we’ll actually I tried to...
But sadly I failed, for ever since that day I last saw you I think about you each day...
I’m sorry for not visiting you lately, but it’s hard for me you see.
How could I ever face the person I cherished when I’m so broken up inside?
I tried not to cry, for 2 years now to let them see that I’m over you...
I guess that’s one of my lies, which I keep on telling myself and everyone else...
When I make coffee in the morning I remember you sitting by the table...
When I woke up about 3am I still recall you passing by the living room...
Every time I cook in the kitchen I remember you asking me”what is that you’re cooking?”
I practiced cooking ever since I learned how to, just to impress you...
Now I just cook to remember you...
You keep on telling me how good of an artist I am
But you never knew that I just wanted to be just like you...
You’re the only one I really listen to, the one I looked up to.
It’s selfish of me I know. To only think of the hurt I’m feeling when I hear your name
This pain that forever remains.
I hope that one day, if the rumours are true.
I shall no longer visit your grave. Instead eternity we shall share.
- Truth is I think I love you
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- marvipacete
- May 6th, 2009
silly
The truth is I like you; the truth is I’m wishing you feel the same way to.The truth is, I can’t help thinking ’bout you, truth is I hate that I do.
The truth is, I like the way you look like a girl.
The truth is, I love it when you’re getting in my nerves.
Though it’s hard to believe, and though it’s hard to perceive.
I do, I find you amusing, and yet I could be deceivedMaybe this feeling I have is, just an illusion
Maybe I’m just being delusional
Life sure can play a joke on mere mortals
It’s a cruel prank, that fate put on me
Trying to forget, trying to use my logic
But I guess my hypothalamus got the best of me
It’s funny yet its scares the hell out of me.
To fall for someone whom I only knew for 2 to 3 months or so.
It’s like I’m on the top of a cliff,
Tempted to jump, tempted to know what I’d feelTrying to deny this feeling, believe me it’s the truth
Tried to forget you, but it seems I just can’t
Tried to listen to my logic but my heart pumps louder and louder
Tried to shut you out of my system, but just like a cold I can’t be cured
I guess what I’m trying to say is
I’ve been going crazy over you.I was hoping you could help me
And love me the way I love you……………….It’s crazy huh? But it's TRUE…
